Just imagine what it would feel like to return all settings within the self back to their default mode, to that perfect starting point of child-like trust, joy and courage. How would we live differently? How would the choices we make in our day-to-day life change if we were able to make them from a place free of emotional baggage?
I’m decidingly more mellow today….and more hopeful too.
It could be the brainwaves suite I’m listening to at work. Its the sounds of birds chirpping and wales singing under the ocean– the soundscape of utopia? Perhaps.Whatever strange world its portaling me to, it’s working. I’m feeling much more relaxed and “one” with both wales and birds, flaura and fauna of all kinds… and in turn, much more in tune with myself and the big, not-sooo-bad, world around me.
I dreamt last night of hitting the “reset” button of life. It was pretty cool, I woke up with a sense of renewal, hope and butterflies of encouragement. I am 28 years old and ready to really, I mean REALLY, try to become the person I’ve always wanted to be (more on who that is, later).
Hitting the reset button of life doesn’t mean I would re-do everything, or that I regret any of the experiences that have lead me to where I am today, it just means I would start anew from where I am at with a clean emotional, mental and spiritual plate. The purpose of this metaphysical “resetting” would be so that I could be more present and less affected by the pain of the past or fears of the future. From this new ground, the goal would be to create a tomorrow for myself and my son that is more in keeping with my dreams, and less the uncontrollable bi-product of my unconscious actions and unfavorable habits.
It is an experiment. And I might fail. But.. just going down the path of transformation could be rather powerful in and of itself itself. Pretty sure if I made any progress at all it would feel pretty awesome. So, what’s to loose?
Yes, I know, it’s much easier to read, blog, and daydream about all of this personal development jazz then its is to actually carry out…but listen to my friend Henry David Thoreau, a transcendentalist super-hero, he’s telling us to go for it anyhow:
If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; there is where they should be. Now put foundations under them.
I’m going to use this blog as my accountability partner in the building of that foundation. I have my castles in the sky for sure, and if there was ever a time to start making something of them here on earth, now would be it.
As a side goal, I hope that people out there who stumble upon ModernSingleMomma, can get something out of this journey too, and maybe even be inspired to re-commit to a little personal work of their own. For starters, here is something we can all think about:
What would pressing the emotional/mental/spiritual reset button in your life mean to you?
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I feel like the ultimate way for me to press the reset button would be to move to a different city or state. I moved a couple times in my life (West Virginia to Texas, then Texas to Michigan), and it always ended up very refreshing — new environment, new friends, new life.
I almost feel like I’m restarting my life right now without even wanting to or trying. Becoming a mom has changed my life so much, and I’ve lost a few friendships in the process… it’s like I’m being forced into restarting everything! (But there’s still the emotional baggage that I feel can only be somewhat diminished by moving away… which isn’t going to happen for a few more years…)
I look forward to reading along with your journey!
This is so odd to me to just read a stingers most intimate thoughts and feel a sort of kinship. I just told a friend today that “I’m starting the rest of my life now” I feel I’m on the right road no matter how much it hurts.
I hit the reset button the moment I left my house.
Hey there Morgan,
I know exactly how you feel where you feel as though you life is in a rut and you need to reset or jump start the things that are around you in your life. I had the same feeling last week, and posted a similar entry. I have decided to take the next 90 days and make some changes in my life. I wish you th best and will try and watch your progress as well. My entry is here http://frankgorton.com/?p=36. Good luck!
Frank
Lauren- I was so similar to you in my past! Before I had Lucca, I moved 6 times in 5 years….jumped around the planet…Australia, Eugene, Italy, Santa Fe, Santa Barbara. Every time I felt a new lease on life…..but then, my old self would catch up to me. I learned I had to figure out a new way to set the “reset” button. Especially now that it is not exactly easy to pack up the bags and head out of state with a little one in tow =)
Single Mommy-
Don’t you just love that? The kinship in the mommy blogosphere is what keeps me here. I’m honored you felt that from my post. It feels so good to me to know another single mommy out there is “starting the rest of her life NOW”. Its an adventure better not taken alone…so happy we can share it. Please keep me posted on the latest!!
Frank-
Nice to meet you! And thank you for sharing your similar feelings. I’m going to hop on over to your post next and read it. We can keep tabs on eachother progress and cheer eachother on!
I love this post … have forwarded it on to a few friends.